Day 2 - Storms may rise but I will Press on!

I didn't know if I should write today or not but..... ya.... so here:


Last night was a rough night. Full of tears and praying and really just yelling at God, "WHY??? What do you want me to learn from this besides heartache?!  Are YOU LISTENING?! HOLD ME!  I never imagined loosing your best friend and the love of your life could be so hard. Yes, I broke up with him on April 5, 2011. Ever since then I have been trying to fix everything and piece us together again. People have their off times and don't get along but I never imagined we'd stay apart this long  =( . I dream of him coming home to me and Ary and us together again.


To make it easier(NOT) Aryana broke my heart by crying asking me to take her to school. I felt bad because I have been so busy with work that I haven't spent a lot of time with her the past 2 days ,so I took her to school. She needs and deserves her mommy! Being a single parent is hard as crap! You have to balance and fill in where God didn't intend for you to fill in. 


While I was at work I read my devotional that I get in my email from Proverbs 31 ministries (amazing let me tell you). The title was "Arise from the wreckage".  It talked about Paul and the trials he faced and being shipwrecked but then he writes Romans 8:28 : And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. If all things work together for those who love Him, please count me in GOD! I LOVE you (lol).  When I got down to the bottom of it there was a prayer: 
Dear Lord, forgive me for wallowing in self-pity and rejection. I trust that You see the bigger picture. I believe there is a purpose for my pain. Strengthen me to rise from my ashes so that others will see You are my help and my salvation. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.


If that isn't a prayer meant for me!?!? 
Stuff happens people! Stuff that makes you feel broken and hopeless but hold onto Him and His promises and you will ride the storm out. YES, I know its easier said than done but Philipians 4:13 your way through it (lol). 


Love ya'll and say a prayer if you think of us (yes all 3 of us)!


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