Its been roughly 3 months since I've written! Survived an emotional holiday season and now still standing at the end of my first valentines day alone in 3 years. Feels weird, Im not gonna lie.
I started the year off with more confidence in God then in me and I am still working towards that. I am thankful for my parents, grandparents and a special uncle who fed me with the "food" I have needed to survive. I want to be more of a spiritual mommy to my precious girl. I bought her her own Bible. She is so excited and loves it! It is my push to actually read it since she is so into it. She is such a blessing and a witness to me! Dont underestimate your little ones! 'Feed' them correctly!
Today has been a little bit of an emotional roller coaster for me ( and I know I am not alone, many of my new girlfriends are experiencing similar). I told myself I wouldnt call him and be angry towards him all day but as the day went on and I had a mini-church session at work talking about God then I called him and let him know I was praying for him and happy valentines day. I wouldnt have been able to do that on my own strength. The devil is trying to keep me stuck emotionally but God and I are winning the battle! It hurts sometimes to have someone I loved so much gone. But I believe since we lacked God we became incompatible and that was where we failed.
I feel blessed amidst all the craziness.
(My current favorite song)
Remain faithful.
blessings.
