Ouch

Why do I still hurt?  How many more hours will I spend crying?!?!
I have never felt this way in my whole life! In a few days will be the 3rd anniversary of when I met this crazy guy who wanted to talk politics while being oh so philosophical all at the same time at all night softball at SAU and I fell head over heels. Holidays are coming.... EHHH I've never wanted them to stay so far away....!

One would think that 6 months later after breaking up that I'd be healed up and ready to go but ummm not so much. First, I am in a community that as far as everyone knows I still belong to him and him to me (so no one probably will ask me out). Second, part of me isnt ready. Dont get me wrong: if the super right guy presents himself MAYBE but even then it might be hard to trust them. What do you do when you give your heart to someone and put your whole future in their hands to have that snatched up in an instance? WOOOO... yeh......

I am thankful for the girls that I have met that are going through similar things and even those who arent but still come and pray with me when they see me crying. They have been heaven sent! God has and will continue to carry me!

Now to keep my mind busy and study Anatomy!

blessings.

Apart

So my writings have been far apart... opps...

This last week was pretty good. Healed from my minor surgery well! Thank the Lord. I had to say goodbye to the best boss in the WORLD. (Yes, I am biased =D  ) I never imagined how much I could love her! She is an AMAZING person and I am blessed to have her in my life. It was rough saying goodbye because I feel like I've lost so many loved ones this year and it sucks!!!! First my Great Grandfather, then my boyfriend, now my best friend/boss. I almost was like Lord how many more!!?!?! I know God is taking of the 2 that are still alive. I am not the best at saying goodbye! My thing is you never know when you will see those people again and to me its so important to make the most of every second that you spend with them.

Also this week there were SOO many people who's lives were torn apart with these storms! Lord, come! It's rough hearing about it and not really being able to do anything to help them and replace the many things they have lost in these storms.

Through all I have been through the Lord is really allowing me to reach out to people who are and have gone through similar situations. It is helping little by little and strengthening me at the same time. It's not easy loosing anyone.

Be thou encouraged!
Happy New Week!

~alisa

End of wk 2

O Sabbath how you were made for my rest! This week was a little crazy to say the least. I feel like everyone is having a rough time getting in the swing of the year. I wasn't late for any classes this week but I missed 2.75 (2 and 3/4 of a class). Not super crazy about that. Thankful my procedure went well and it feels like the recovery might not be so long (AMEN). Aryana is loving school but is so exhausted every day! I played softball this week with No Fear (my team), that was a blast! Right after I did Insanity and Im even more sore today than yesterday lol. School it pretty good. Im disappointed that I cant take Elementary Spanish 101. I took the placement test and they said i scored 464 (Level 4) and could take the challenge exam if I wanted. I think in Spring 2012 I will take the challenge test. Spanish is definitely a work in progress for me but getting lots better.

Please continue to pray for "Us" and that Ary, Juli (lil sis), and I continue to do well in school this semester.

~alisa